Sunday, 26 March 2017
March #3: When Things Get Too Bad... Shoot Me With A Silver Bullet
The other night I had a panic attack.
This is not a gag. Nor is it one of those posts where the blogger bares his soul and throws himself on the pity of his readership. It's just a post about music. Sometimes though, to talk about what music really means, what it really does, you have to give a little bit of yourself.
I've not had a lot of panic attacks in my life. I could count them on my fingers and still have enough left to flick you the Vs. And I seriously doubt whether by many people's standards - people with far bigger anxiety problems than I have - what I class as a panic attack would really pass muster. I wasn't blowing into any brown paper bags.
Neither does it matter why I had it. Sometimes the pressures of life, work, being a parent, feeling alone... sometimes such things, and other things, get on top of a person. And when that happens, you might need a little something to get you through the night. For many, that might be a snifter or two of their chosen poison, but since I quit poison getting on for 17 years ago (a story for another time perhaps, it's not as dramatic as you might imagine), all I can rely on is some really good music.
Anyway, I was laying there in bed and I knew I wasn't going to get to sleep feeling like I did. And I also knew that music was the best / only option to soothe what ailed me. Luckily, in the era of the cloud, I didn't even have to get up to scour the CD shelves. I just had to type a name into the tablet and my panacea awaited. Long term readers might make an educated guess as to which name I chose...
They would be wrong.
3. Bob Seger & The Silver Bullet Band - Night Moves
Maybe some other time I'll explain to you why I chose Bob Seger. It's not tied to any particular story or moment in my life. It's a feeling, a sensation, a quality which is hard to explain... and I'm sure you won't get. It doesn't really matter. Bob Seger was exactly what I needed. Thank you, Bob.
All you need is all you need.
ReplyDeleteAs a panic attack sufferer, you have my sympathies mate
ReplyDeleteWhatever gets you through the night.
ReplyDeleteThe healing power of music is a wonderful thing. Hope you feel better soon. Virtual hugs.
ReplyDeleteV glad Bob hit the spot.
ReplyDeleteAlso... "I could count them on my fingers and still have enough left to flick you the Vs." Excellent. I might "borrow" that sometime ;)
Love the way music can just do what you need it to do when you need it to most - v glad this did for you.
ReplyDeleteAlso, as Martin says, loving that "...flick you the Vs" phrase, brilliant.
Had a bit of a panic attack myself this morning when I first read this as was worried about you. Re-reading it now, I see that it is more about selecting the musical panacea needed at the time (hope so anyway). Take care though - your body is perhaps trying to tell you something.
ReplyDeleteThank you all. Sorry to worry you, Alyson. I'm not about to turn this blog into a psychiatrist's couch. Your evaluation is correct. To convey what music means to me, sometimes I have to discuss things I wouldn't otherwise air in public.
ReplyDeleteRol,
ReplyDeleteI really admire you for sharing this with your internet pals. Music (and books, and art) can definitely help to keep our heads above water. If you were a "real world" pal, I'd be subjecting you to one of my custom-made, feel-good compilation CDs.