Sunday, 26 March 2017

March #3: When Things Get Too Bad... Shoot Me With A Silver Bullet

The other night I had a panic attack.

This is not a gag. Nor is it one of those posts where the blogger bares his soul and throws himself on the pity of his readership. It's just a post about music. Sometimes though, to talk about what music really means, what it really does, you have to give a little bit of yourself.

I've not had a lot of panic attacks in my life. I could count them on my fingers and still have enough left to flick you the Vs. And I seriously doubt whether by many people's standards - people with far bigger anxiety problems than I have - what I class as a panic attack would really pass muster. I wasn't blowing into any brown paper bags.

Neither does it matter why I had it. Sometimes the pressures of life, work, being a parent, feeling alone... sometimes such things, and other things, get on top of a person. And when that happens, you might need a little something to get you through the night. For many, that might be a snifter or two of their chosen poison, but since I quit poison getting on for 17 years ago (a story for another time perhaps, it's not as dramatic as you might imagine), all I can rely on is some really good music.

Anyway, I was laying there in bed and I knew I wasn't going to get to sleep feeling like I did. And I also knew that music was the best / only option to soothe what ailed me. Luckily, in the era of the cloud, I didn't even have to get up to scour the CD shelves. I just had to type a name into the tablet and my panacea awaited. Long term readers might make an educated guess as to which name I chose...

They would be wrong.

3. Bob Seger & The Silver Bullet Band - Night Moves

Maybe some other time I'll explain to you why I chose Bob Seger. It's not tied to any particular story or moment in my life. It's a feeling, a sensation, a quality which is hard to explain... and I'm sure you won't get. It doesn't really matter. Bob Seger was exactly what I needed. Thank you, Bob.


  1. All you need is all you need.

  2. As a panic attack sufferer, you have my sympathies mate

  3. Whatever gets you through the night.

  4. The healing power of music is a wonderful thing. Hope you feel better soon. Virtual hugs.

  5. V glad Bob hit the spot.

    Also... "I could count them on my fingers and still have enough left to flick you the Vs." Excellent. I might "borrow" that sometime ;)

  6. Love the way music can just do what you need it to do when you need it to most - v glad this did for you.
    Also, as Martin says, loving that "...flick you the Vs" phrase, brilliant.

  7. Had a bit of a panic attack myself this morning when I first read this as was worried about you. Re-reading it now, I see that it is more about selecting the musical panacea needed at the time (hope so anyway). Take care though - your body is perhaps trying to tell you something.

  8. Thank you all. Sorry to worry you, Alyson. I'm not about to turn this blog into a psychiatrist's couch. Your evaluation is correct. To convey what music means to me, sometimes I have to discuss things I wouldn't otherwise air in public.

  9. Rol,
    I really admire you for sharing this with your internet pals. Music (and books, and art) can definitely help to keep our heads above water. If you were a "real world" pal, I'd be subjecting you to one of my custom-made, feel-good compilation CDs.


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