As mentioned last week, I returned to my workplace last Tuesday. At what would normally be a really busy time of year in the college building, I had the place virtually to myself. There were other people about, but nowhere near the number I'd normally encounter... even in holidays. And this was enrolment week. But most enrolment is being done online this year, and most of the classes still will be. I'll have one "live, face to face" class on Tuesday and one on Wednesday, and I also have a good reason to be in the building on Monday... but I'll still teaching from home Thursday and Friday.
I can't begin to tell you how much better I felt working from work. Many of the serious anxiety symptoms I've faced at home were reduced, even at times forgotten. Except on Friday, when I felt them creeping back up again...
One day at a time. That's all I can do this job now. If I think about next week or the next few months, a black pall rises. As is often the case in this blog, I write this not for your sympathy (though it's always appreciated when offered) but as a record of how I'm feeling now... so that in the future when I read it back, I'll remember how I felt.
“Someday we'll look back on this and it will all seem funny.”
I dunno, Bruce. It's getting harder and harder to believe that line every day.
You know when you hear a new band and you think "wow, that's pretty strong for a debut record!" And then you read up on them and you discover they've been around for 14 years and you never heard them before. I like it that this can still happen at my age.*
American Aquarium are such a band. Americana is the genre. They've obviously listened to a fair bit of Bruce. Good on them.
*Wait a second. On the verge of posting this, I discovered that I have featured the band's lead singer, BJ Barnham, here before. At the time, I said I didn't know whether his former band were still on the go. Glad to see they are.
